I promised I would write here more often so here I am.  I’ve got a few things to talk about today.

It’s getting quiet in Midian.  I would imagine it’s the same all over the grid.  Summer comes and it gets quiet on the grid.  More and more folks are out enjoying the fresh air and sunshine.   Then there are all the college kids who go home and have to get jobs to support their next year of school.  I’ve been in SL for over 2 years and I see the same thing every year.  And every year someone comes out and starts talking about how SL is dying because concurrency is down etc etc.  There is a cycle, this happens every year.  I personally plan to enjoy the fact their are fewer people on the grid.  I plan to enjoy being able to walk through Midian without the rubber band lag effect.

I’m sure there are dozens of things I could write about that are of some importance to those of you  that read these words but I’ve decided to take a different route.  I’m going to write about …. well… me.  Duh, it’s my blog.

I’m not… assertive.  No really I’m not.  Most of you who know me know that I’m not.  Ioh and I have talked about it in relation to some RP in Midian and for whatever reason, I’m just not very assertive.  I should be though.  I want to be. The questions is, can I be?   In RL as well as SL I’m a bit shy really.  Stop laughing, I am. 

I don’t really like crowds, I’ve never liked the bar scene and to be honest, I prefer to be home.  I hate trying to have a conversation in a crowd or even trying to keep up with group chat.  Home is comfortable, it’s mine and I work damn hard to have the money to pay for it.  I should use it!  And so I do.  However, that doesn’t help me be more assertive.  I don’t mean Super Bitch assertive either.  I’m talking about being the girl who is taken seriously when she speaks.  I’m talking about being the girl that others trust enough to follow.  I’m talking about being the girl who stands up front and says, "We go this way" and everyone follows her.

I know it won’t be easy.  It means stepping out of what’s easy and comfortable for me.  I enjoy a challenge though.  This will be one that’s for sure.  In any event, I think it’ll be good for me.

So I’m off on a journey this summer to find  the other me, the stronger one, the more assertive one.  The one who will probably be on a belltower in Midian…. watching.

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